Hey Lucy, I completely Understand Where You At - A Couple Of Years Ago My Dad Was Diagnosed with Cancer and I felt just like you have described. I felt numb, as if I was living a dream. Nothing Felt real and Suprising as it might be my Mum also reacted in the same way your Mum has. She Had A short temper span and always seemed to take it out on me - I guess its true when people say You take It Out on the ones your closest to. Unfortunately My Dads cancer had been there longer than people thought and he sadly passed away within three months of knowing - but dont let this information ruin your hope you have. It was an unusual condition my Dad was in and because of crap doctors he didn't get the treatment he needed fast enough. I know its scary seeing them become weaker and having to rely on things such as a feeding tube but I promise you the feeding tube, the dodgy drips and the chemo all help on the road to recovery. So for the meanwhile just stay strong for your family, your Mum but most importantly your step Dad. I hope everything turns out ok. Keep smiling =] Georgia
My step dad was diagnosed with cancer primairly on his tongue and secondairly on his throat in late july, just weeks before he was getting married to my mum. i love him so much but i feel horrible for saying this but i dont feel anything, yeh when he told me i cried and only thought of the scary things that you first think of with cancer but now hes had one batch of chemo and i feel numb. My mum is still crying all the time and shes got a short fuse which she never use to have, which is her way of coping and that fine, tony- my step dad has always been positive and i remember when he told me he siad well its not like ive got the flu or anything im not bed ridden ill still drive you around (having a car is a novelty for 17 years i was walking everywhere) so he took it really well and still is. it's just me i cant see him been weak or ill ,last week he was fitted with a feeding tube because when he starts his radiation he wont be able to eat but will still get fod in, now that got me scared but i've stopped feeling i sound callous and horrid but im not i love him so much i just dont think its sunk in whats happening, is this normal? my mum says im in denial maybe shes right but i have to be her rock so she can be tony's but its stopped me being able to crumble, have any of you felt like this , what should i be feeling? i know its a personal thing but why do i feel like im been stone hearted?i dont even talk aboutit with my friends i just at a loss now.
